Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Dad
It's hard to believe it's been two years. In some ways it seems like a lifetime ago - and yet I expect him to come walking through my front door, cocktail in hand saying "Nanc"..... As much as my father could make me absolutely nutz I would give most anything to share more time with him. My comfort is knowing that he and Mom are together again, she really was his soul mate and his soul was fractured after Mom died, though he would never talk about it - at least with us kids.
Dad was not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, yet it was rare you'd hear him admit he was 'wrong' about something - which could get a little annoying to the rest of us. As I got older, a little smarter, and more patient, I realized Dad was a product of his upbringing, gene pool, and the time he lived in....not excuses, just reality.
Of the three of us I probably locked horns with my father most often from my teenage years on into adulthood, (though my brother could give me a run for the money sometimes!). Though those weren't the most enjoyable parts of my life - they were definitely learning times. The last few years of Dad's life we were able to interact with each other more as adults...but let there be no doubt I was always THE kid!!!!! Dad learned that his oldest daughter was pretty smart and could navigate around the medical community with pretty good efficiency - and I think he realized that even though I do have an emotional side, I'm not driven by my emotions - at least not in most cases.
Dad and Mom would be pleased that my brother, sister and I have managed to hang together and continue to be an active part of each others life - that's the way they would want it, and it's hard to imagine life being any other way.
Yeah, it's really hard to believe Dad died two years ago today - I miss you and love you Dad, we all miss you.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Back in the saddle....
My 10 day adventure to San Juan and the southern Caribbean was really a little slice of heaven. It is the first real vacation I've had in a very long time...where I didn't have to do anything; be anywhere; make any kind of decision aside from what I wanted to eat off the dinner menu/what wine I wanted/or little umbrella drink I wanted. I didn't open my day planner one time while I was gone, and though I usually wore my watch or had it in my beach bag, it didn't really matter what time it was (of course with the exception of being back on the ship before it left...and that I was on time for my dinner seating!). Amy and I went on a New England vacation about 5-6 years ago - but that was colored by the fact that we had just found out about our mother's cancer - it was a 'presence' even though the two of us didn't talk about it....the proverbial 'elephant in the room'.
I feel like I came home a much happier, rested, and more relaxed person than I was when I left - and hopefully I'm not as grumpy and impatient as I was before I left. Lesson learned....get away for even a few days with some regularity, especially while there are household upheavals - for everyone's sake!
The southern Caribbean is really quite beautiful. Last Saturday Becki and I had lunch on the top of a mountain (we took a tram up and down) - with all outside seating, it overlooked the bay of St. Thomas and it was just spectacular...and they made a great chef salad! I decided I could take this cruise again and be happy never getting off the boat - just enjoying all the sunshine and relaxation.
So, now it's back to reality - to get back in the saddle! Today Sara and I are hanging out together - it just amazes me how a little person can just make my heart soar. Spent time yesterday on some church projects. Really, I'm easing back into life....I was smart enough not to schedule anything this week!!
Friday, January 16, 2009
Brrrrr.....
This morning I went outside to take some trash to the burn barrel and took a header, right into the snow, one glove off because I was wrangling some of the burnables. You need to understand, the burn barrel is in my sister's yard, next door and they are in the throws of renovation and construction next door, so really the yard is now nothing but a big construction zone (it has been complete with backhoe!) and thus the ground is very, very uneven. I know all of this, but when you put several inches of fresh snow on top of the ground everything looks pretty even!!! Oh, I'm fine...aside from feeling like and idiot!!!
My remodel project is coming along - it's no longer like a freezer up there, they hooked up the furnace/AC Tuesday. Tuesday they also hung all of the drywall - and now they are 'taping' and 'filling'....from what I can tell, to make everything even, cover up seams and nail holes! Then the trim goes in and then painting. This morning I decided this was going to be a reality, it's not just conceptual...though you'd think with all the checks I've written that would make things 'real'!!!
A week from today I'm leaving this cold weather behind for a week!!! Flying to San Juan for a couple of days and boarding a cruise liner for a week of relaxation and fun!!! Again, today it finally seem 'real'! I am anxious to see the southern Caribbean - Aruba; Netherlands, Antilles; Grenada; Dominica; and the Virgin Islands. I see this as a vacation that is all about beaches, pools, and drinks with little umbrellas in them!!!! That's not to say that there might be a little shopping involved too.....
So, for now is Brrrrrr...but in six months I'll be lamenting the heat and humidity and would give most anything for the cooler weather!!!
Monday, January 05, 2009
There is no denying it....
Perhaps what set this 'revelation' in motion was when I drove up to my house I realized how different it looks now, compared to a few short months ago, back in 2008. It's not just another house, or the house I inherited from my mother and father - it is indeed MY house, and I have and continue to put my personal stamp on it...it really is home. It struck me that this place now really is inviting, and has taken on that 'English cottage' look I've been trying to cultivate - and I like it, and am happy it's my home.
As I looked back on 2008 I have to say it was a fairly good year. First no close or extended family members died, was diagnosed with a dreadful disease, or struck with some other catastrophe. This past year I think I've 'come to terms' with this autoimmune disease I have - I've learned to live with it, instead of in spite of it....though I really think this is going to be a life long challenge - I don't particularly like anything (or anyone) dictating what I am able or unable to do. Quality time in the hospital has actually been pretty minimal...take away January and February and the very first of March - and I was hospital free...I take that as a victory. Yes, I still have to build my life around infusions every 28 days, and will continue to have to do this for the rest of my life - but in the big picture, it's not a Mother Theresa sacrifice!
In 2008 I was able to travel quite a bit. March was a great trip to Disney World with Tabitha and her family - more specifically, my three granddaughters....my first time there! There were several trips to Texas to spend time with Tabitha and her family - the last time in November when I got to meet my new grandson, Maverick - he's a kid who doesn't like to ride in the car, and he's part of a family that is on the go, go, go....God has a wicked sense of humor!!! In June I went to Texas, and came home with my oldest granddaughter Isabel who spent almost three weeks with me...her visit included a long weekend in Chicago and a day in the city seeing the sites - Isabel is an awesome little girl!
My big venture of 2008 was a 2 week European vacation - most of the time spent on a cruise ship sailing the Baltic Sea. Yes, I visited The Little Mermaid and Tivoli Garden - and several castles and shopped the shops of the city. Our ports took us to Denmark, Sweden, Finland, Russia, Poland, Estonia, and Germany. Russia and Germany were real highlights - we spent two days in Russia, and you could spend weeks there, taking it all in - the history of the country is fascinating, the people were kind (except the pickpockets who swiped my camera from my fanny pack...they almost got my passport, before I realized what was going on!), and REAL beef stroganoff is fabulous! We went to Berlin, Germany - and again, the history of the place is just incredible...to be able to walk through the Brandenburg Gate, touch the Berlin Wall, and walk freely through Checkpoint Charlie were powerful, powerful experiences. Perhaps my favorite place to visit, and somewhere I would go back to in a heartbeat is Estonia - exactly how you picture picturesque Europe - and they have great woolens!
My other 'big' news is all the renovations here, at my home. Currently the attic is turning into a master suite - and it is really beginning to take shape - you can 'see' where the actual living areas are going to be, where the loo is....it is really going to be an amazing space when they get done.
Since late fall my sister and her family have been living here with me - their house, next door really is uninhabitable. We all have our moments - my brother-in-law and I tend to put my sister "in the middle", and that is something I'm really working on, it makes her justifiably crazy! Sometimes this house gets a little small for three strong willed adults none of whom are short on opinion - and then you throw the cutest, smartest three year old there is in the mix....well, all bets are off! But really, it's great that they are here, and I'm sure I'll miss the company once they can go home to there both restored and new home, sometime this spring.
So, here we are 2009, and who knows what this year will hold. There is an exciting inevitability about a new year - it's here, ready or not!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
The roofers wanted to start on New Year's day, but this homeowner said 'iksney'!
As if this isn't enough, the earth movers and cement trucks are are at it next door, and the interior walls are tumbling down too so that your can look from the kitchen to the living room - straight through.
OK...enough of the home construction version of 'The Night Before Christmas'! Suffice it to say that things seem to be firing on all cylinders here and next door...finally! Was up in the attic/master suite last night giving the flashlight tour (currently no electricity up there) to my uncle and his wife from Chicago and almost stepped through the floor/ceiling of the bathroom....some planks have been removed to 'rough in' the plumbing...they're also working on the HVAC and electrical.
And so it goes...................
Sunday, December 28, 2008
"Y".....
When talking about this with my dad's brother, "Uncle Paul" he suggested there is but one answer for that question...."Y" not!!! I have experimented with that response and actually, it is fairly effective - she has no clue what to do with that question!
We had a great Christmas here..."Y" you ask...because the three year old had an amazing Christmas - a doll house, dolly, art cart, chimes....all perfection when you're living in the realm of being three!
All the adults and teenagers had a good Christmas too, "Y" is that - everything fits or is something that I needed/wanted, and a couple of surprises. It's always nice when what you give and get are 'on the money'.
So, all is fairly quiet in the land of "Y" - the inquisitor is sleeping..."Y"....because asking questions is tiring work!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Really....?????
Now, the 'lead guy' of the team just came down and told me they were going to need to get into my closet to run the "chase" down to the basement...it involves a three inch pipe - so I'm assuming it revolves around plumbing....really???? He wondered if 'how much I would need to move out of my closet...are you kidding me....REALLY????? Storage space is down to a bear minimum, what do they really think my closet is empty...REALLY???
I've made it a policy not to venture upstairs on any regular basis....but as Sara says, "dair rewee noisee up dair!" - and that they are! The plumbing is suppose to be done this week, that is the 'rough in'...OK, I think I can figure that out too...but, REALLY?!?!?!?! Then there is something fairly straight forward on deck for next week...the HVAC...now do you know what that is....REALLY!!!!
So, the question is, do I continue to look at people and engage with them like I REALLY know what they are talking about - or just fess up when I am clueless and feel like the proverbial deer in the headlights?!?!?! Really..............
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Construction, Destruction, and Christmas...
And yes, have I mentioned the giant hole that was once the northeast corner/roof of my house?!?!?! Actually, they have 'framed in' what will be the dormer on the north side of the house, it will run the full length of what will be the bathroom. I didn't fully appreciate the gravity of the situation until I came home from the store one day this week, and oh my gosh - thank goodness no one else was on the street!!!
Last week was spent selecting tile, granite, flooring, sinks, toilets, and ordering my dream tub...in addition to everything else!!! For the record - think subway tile/white, mosaic floor tile/black and white, beautiful 'ice' granite, 1940's style sinks w/a toilet that 'matches, an air jet tub w/heated backs, and hardwood pre-distressed maple floors.....the number of choices is crazy. Also, with the cabinet guy and my designer I helped design a custom piece of furniture that is going to be in the bathroom for storage. I'm told I still have 'lighting' to select - as well as 'knobs'....this really takes on a life of it's own.
Today was spent driving to Lafayette to cut down a Christmas tree - Rob cut it down, and now with the star affixed to the top only a few inches away from my 8" ceiling, it stands proudly in the corner of my living room....with the white lights twinkling!!! Tomorrow will be decorating day....Sara is so completely jazzed about this Christmas, it is something - and so much fun!!!! Tomorrow will also be a day to start baking cookies for Santa - and Santa rocks, especially when you're three...but technically Amy started the Christmas baking tonight!!!
Ahhhhhhh.......tis the season!
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Think Pink and Purple!!!
The first full week is occupied with more important 'things' than Christmas preparations and Christmas hoopla....my brothers triplets (who are truly amazing...and they still are at 16!) have their birthday and then 4 days later my sisters' daughter has her birthday...she's going to be 'free' tomorrow!!! Throw in my brother-in-laws birthday and remembering my Dad on his birthday on the 15th - well, you get the idea. It's a jam packed month before you even start considering Christmas.
So tomorrow, it is going to throw up pick and purple at my house. My niece is quite enamoured with fairies, especially Tinkerbell...it's all Tink all the time around here!!! My sister has done her usual amazing job of planning and pulling things off - she's made pink and purple bunting to hang. made star/flower cookies and glazed them with either pink, purple, or white glaze, then put a little gum drop in the middle...very cute. The cupcakes are to be frosted with cream cheese frosting and she has cut out fondant in the shape of flowers to decorate them with...again in pink or purple.
We just did a head count and there will be 15 adults and 9 children here....we will all be cozy, but as long as my niece has an amazing birthday I don't really care how many people are here!!! My contribution to the party is that I'm making goodie bags with chocolates, peppermint candy canes, and a jingly bell. These bags are going to be distributed to all of Sara's guests by the big guy himself, that's right Santa is coming. Sara wrote him a letter and invited him....and he's coming!!! It should be something...I say she's going to be speechless, and let me say....that is saying something!!!!!
Even though there was snow in the air today and we had some accumulation - it has to be pink and purple before it cane be evergreen green and red!!!
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Giving Thanks
Today, like many of the two most major holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas, in my world) I found myself headed south - to the family farm, where my grandmother, our Grammy still lives....even though today she is on the acute rehab until of the hospital recovering from her broken hip. I found the all Christmas music, all the time local radio station (quite by accident) and that music was playing softly in the background.
As I barreled down I65 my brain was something of a movie reel, recalling those hundreds of times I've made this trip - car trips when I was just a little girl; how my brother and I use to make sport of 'picking' at each other for the entire trip making our parents crazy; how we use to have to drive down US 31 until the 'interstate' was built; remembering the last Thanksgiving my mother went to Columbus, her very last Thanksgiving was spent in a hospital; remembering the last Thanksgiving Dad was alive - it was right after finding out he had multiple metastatic brain tumors, and I remember what an unusually quiet trip it was that day - we all knew (in our hearts) this would be Dad's last Thanksgiving with us.....the next thing I knew it was time to 'cut across the country side' on the rural roads to get to my grandmothers - and the corn fields were picked, and most plowed, and there were a couple of fields where the winter wheat is beginning to peek through....and I remembered some of Dad's agronomy tutorials - during the many trips we made across those roads.
All this to say, the real essence of Thanksgiving became clear to me - all that I have to thankful for, and the richly blessed life that I am allowed to live. Really, I have very little to complain about, though I can usually find something at least once a day....which isn't something I'm proud of.
The last 11 years or so have taught me that the most important 'things' in life, really aren't 'thing's or the 'stuff' I have - what really matters are those that are priceless. The list isn't exhaustive, to be sure, but here is the 2009 edition of what I'm thankful for...what is really important in my life:
- God, and living in a country where I am free to worship and express my faith
- having parents who often loved me in spite of myself, and taught me what 'family' is, and means
- parents who may be gone physically, but, whose lessons I still seem to be learning
- a husband who died too young, but taught me what love is, and the deepest love is often difficult
- CJ and Amy
- Sharon and Rob
- the triplets, Kelli and Beaux, and Tony
- Sara Hope
- my large extended family, especially my grandmother and aunts and uncles
- my very smart, funny, and loyal friends
- my step-children and their spouses
- amazing grandchildren
- the gleeful laugh of an almost three year old
- Tinkerbell and the joy 'she' brings to a little girl
- living in a place where I get to enjoy the changing seasons
- living in a country where I can speak my mind, express my thoughts, and move about as I choose
- having a warm, safe, comfortable home to live in...that will be getting 'bigger' soon...hopefully!
- living in a time and place where medical care is accessible and the quality is good
- the opportunity to learn something every day
- laughter - especially in challenging and 'difficult' situations
- cardinals and how their bright red color brightens even the bleakest fall or winter day
- every day, really God's daily gift
I like to think that daily I am a grateful, thankful person - but somehow, Thanksgiving brings it in to sharp focus for me...and though it does sound corny, really being thankful needs to be something I'm more intentional about, everyday.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Hospitals and Retail Therapy
Well, yesterday morning my sister and I packed up and headed to the hospital - to get eyes on my grandmother's unfolding situation. Since my brother-in-laws mother is in town, we could go and leave the two year old at home (which allowed my sister the option to make the trip!)...the two year old, Sara, is all about the 'adventure'; but really I'm not sure that any of the rest of us were up for a hospital adventure with her.
After getting in the general vicinity of the community where my grandmother lives/the hospital we stopped for some lunch. Had a nice cuppa soup and half of my hamburger....needed to use the lew before we left....oh my gosh, you could almost see your breath in there is was so cold, it was nutz. I had a little chill, thought it was because it was like Antarctica in that bathroom - so after packing up leftovers from our lunch, be skedaddled to the hospital.
This regional community hospital has 'free' valet parking...and for the record, it really is 'free'!!! Since it literally was freezin' cold yesterday and I'm due for an infusion in just a couple of days, and it really was 'free' we had this fresh faced young man (really, could he possibly have a drivers license???) park my car. As we walked in the front door we glanced up and who should be see walking across the second floor...all of our family walking... So the youngest aunt (a couple of years my senior) waited on us, and guided us to our grandmother's room.
We hung out for about an hour and then she made her entrance. My grandmother is a very dignified, proper woman - I've never heard her utter a curse word, I'm not even sure she knows what they are to even think them! She will wear pants - after all she has been the sole caretaker of the family farmhouse - you know, ladders to climb, cabinets to climb on, gutters to clean....and I'm NOT kidding!!! Well, let's just say, I'm glad that my grandmother probably won't remember yesterday - she was miserable. After a hip replacement they put this giant triangular pillow between your legs to keep your hips in 'proper alignment - this has to feel 'awkward' if not uncomfortable. Add into this she had/has a catheter, had just laid on a hard uncomfortable operating table for several hours, and that she's 94 (hello...94!!!) and has osteoporosis (her picture is by the word in the dictionary) - she had to be uncomfortable. Add to this litany of woes the fact that she is deaf as a door knob without her hearing aides and needs glasses (have I mentioned, she's 94) - she was just generally miserable - and there was no making it better, or convincing her it was going to be better....she just wanted the pillow and catheter gone - and to go home!!! Simple, huh?!?!?!?
I personally, was lobbying hard for some pain meds, from the get go. She may say she's not in 'pain' (that's really hard to believe, since she'd just had her femur sawed on and screwed into) - but if nothing else, she wouldn't be restless. Let's just say the tiny about of medication they gave her - which did knock her out, was barely a whif!!! But, it made her more comfortable - and therefore helped the rest of us feel a little bit better about life - at least for a few minutes.
Throughout these several hours I visited the ladies room several times....let's say the chill I had at the restaurant wasn't entirely because the temperature in there was igloo like. I needed to get going (in more ways than one....my kingdom for a Sprite) - and Amy really wanted to 'hit' the outlet mall that is down there.
So, off we were...only to be weigh laid by the fact that the 'valet' who parked my car was no longer on duty and there was no one else in sight. So, I checked with the lady at the front desk (it was her first day - I'm not kidding, I can't make this stuff up), and eventually she tracked down the right person...of course, there had been a 'change in shifts'!!!
Then it was off to the outlet mall for a little retail therapy!!! My niece is the beneficiary of some really, really cute clothes. Amy bought her daughter her Christmas ensemble complete with hat and purse, her Christmas Eve/morning jammies, and a couple of other cute outfits. I too got Sara some cutie clothes and leggings! And then, Amy and I each got our selves a few things, I got a pretty sweater and a blouse/sweater vest combo...Amy got pants, sweaters, shirts (she needed more clothes than me!).
Finally we headed home - I got my coveted Sprite. As a bonus I was able to buy gas for $1.54/gallon - it almost feels like stealing!!!!
Today - I've been laying low and taking it easy...kind of a nice change of pace.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Thanksgiving
I am about as "all American" as it comes. No, I'm not overly crazy about baseball (it's like watching paint dry) - but I do love football...think pointy ended ball, the Indianapolis Colts, etc and you've got the picture. I love hot dogs and chips, an icy cold Diet Coke, the Fourth of July, and John Phillip Sousa.
Now, it doesn't get much more 'American' than Thanksgiving - Pilgrims, Plymouth Rock, the Maria, Pinta, and Santa Maria And really who doesn't love a perfectly cooked turkey; a mound of mashed spuds with a heaping spoonful of homemade noodles nestled down in the taters; fresh cranberry salad; and, a piece of my mother's famous pumpkin cream cheese pie - followed by the obligatory carbohydrate coma?!?!?!?!! Certainly, not me - I love it all.
My whole life we have literally traveled over the river and through the wood (though the wood has shrunk considerably!) to grandmother's house for Thanksgiving dinner. It is my father's mother, and it is the house her father built - we like our 'roots' in my family! It is a wonderful old farm house, and when I'm there I often think, 'if these walls could talk'......
Well today, in the midst of the pre-Thanksgiving, pre-Christmas insanity I get a phone call from my sister-in-law....who just doesn't call to chat, especially during the work day. Thought everyone who needed my new e-mail address had gotten it....well, evidently not. Seems one of my cousins, my uncle's daughter tried to e-mail me and it got 'bounced back'....long story short, my 94 year old grandmother was en route to the hospital, seems she has fractured her femur and is going to need surgery. Look, nobody wants a 94 year old to have surgery...not doctors or nurses or families....AND certainly not my grandmother. But, really there is nothing 'elective' about this - so that eliminates all the head scratching and questioning about whether something 'should' be done...depending on your perspective, I guess this is could be a 'good' thing.
Historically Thanksgiving is kind of a dicey time in my universe for health issues....my father, with all his 'big' cancer announcements occurred around Thanksgiving, usually right before - when mom got sick, Thanksgiving was a disaster, she was in the hospital, and I've had my own health issues at this time of year....we just don't seem to have good Thanksgiving 'mojo'.
People who know me know I've developed the philosophy of 'don't going looking for trouble, trouble will find you soon enough' - it just really is a fact . But, that being said, I've had a 'feeling' for awhile about my grandmother and this holiday season (to cap it off, my sister tells me this afternoon she had been 'thinking' about our grandmother and Thanksgiving) - I didn't have a 'good' reason to have 'a feeling', but I did. And just for the record, my 'feeling(s)' are notoriously right.
So anyway, there you have it. She is a strong and somewhat cantankerous woman - she's going to have surgery tomorrow morning and I'm sure she will be fine...it may slow her down a little bit, but it's OK, she's earned the right....she won't like it....oh well.....
As 'All-American' as I am, I do have some 'issues' with Thanksgiving - I might pardon all those turkeys given the chance!!! (Does anyone but me remember the WKRP episode when they did the 'Thanksgiving promo' and dropped turkeys from a helicopter.....turkeys can't fly!!!)
Thursday, November 20, 2008
OK...so I'm not great at this....
Who would think that the life of a middle-aged woman (and that's all I'm willing to concede to!) would be of any interest, but, I guess it is to a few!
You know it's been a month...my sister, her husband and two year old have been here now for a month (really, I'm not exactly sure how long it's been, but I'm certain, it's been a month), they finally finished installing my railings this morning - on the back steps, and I'm inching ever closer to getting the required building permits so they can renovate my attic...talk about bureaucratic red tape and paper pushers....really, you don't want to get me started, it just isn't very pretty!!!
Just returned from a trip to Texas. The granddaughters are all amazing and smart and beautiful - and now there is a little man in the mix...Maverick (what can I say, they live in Texas!!!) - but, I think it's a name that will suit him just fine. He is a handsome little man, and has really only one little 'quirk'....really for this family, it's not so 'little' - he detests, hates, loathes, car rides - and I'm here to tell you, he wants his whole world, and the rest of the universe to know it!!!! His mother took him to the MD this Monday before I left and asked the pediatrician about this little 'quirk' and if there was anything that she could do about it...the answer was simple an concise...."stay home". OK...so, you need to be ready for the answer when you ask the question - that's really not the help our daughter was looking for - so I guess, 'go with it' for the foreseeable future is the 'solution'!!!
While in Texas I got to celebrate my first Christmas of the year - complete with Christmas tree, decorations, candles - it was great. And, it is the first Christmas I've 'been there' in person when everyone opened their presents - it was a lot of fun. The award for 'best present' seemed to go to the body pillow I got Isabel - the oldest granddaughter....everyone wanted a piece of the pillow and Isabel was really having none of it - at least not yet!!! Had I only known!!! The Nintendo DS clothes designing game also seemed to be a hit - as well as the decorate it yourself messenger bag I got Jill/granddaughter #2....and Maya/granddaughter #3 really liked the baby doll. Little Mav - as long as he didn't have to ride in a car, he loved it all!!!
Sara, the amazing two year old (soon to be three) niece continues to be amazing and mystifying and amazing...have I mentioned amazing?? That little stinker (and she is!!) has me so wrapped around her tiny little, little finger - she just holds my heart in her hand.
Today I saw my first snow flakes, they were teeny tiny, and certainly not going to stick - but it was nice to see them. I am a mid-western girl at heart - I love the changing seasons and all that the seasons bring....although, given the choice I would 'opt out' of the sweltering, thick with humidity summer time.
So, now it is getting to be that 'ho-ho-ho' time of year. Since both Mom and Dad have now been gone for more than a year it doesn't feel quite as searing, to go through these family seasons without them, but they are missed - by me and I think my brother and sister too. It will be a little 'odd' again this year - since Amy and her family are going to be here for Christmas - and no one will be 'at home', where we all grew up....but, maybe it is a blessing in disguise, to have a true 'break' and then Amy and her family and our whole family will begin new traditions...that's what I'm going with!
I have errands to run, that I 'forgot' about when I was out earlier - and I think they will just have to wait until tomorrow when I go out to get my hair cut...there is a chill in the air, and it is wonderful.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Big Toes, Kitties...and, life
Waking up the morning was yet another adventure in living!!! There I am, all cuddled into my nice 600 thread count sheets, under my nice warm down comforter, snoozing peacefully....when, all of a sudden there is this odd yet certain sensation - someone is pulling a my big toe!!! I think what initially startled me was the fact that the pulling of the big toe was a 'prank' my father enjoyed pulling, which was closely followed by a booming "rise and shine"....Dad was so the morning person - for those of us who like a few minutes to cozy up to a new day, and if at all possible ingest some coffee as soon as possible - this awakening by Dad could be a rude one!!!! But this morning, my toe tug was closely followed by "ANCEE....oh ANCEE....you wake?!?!?!?!". Now, I wanted to say - 'I am now'....but really, what effect will this have on a two year old?!?!?!? And again, being awakened by that sweet voice isn't all bad - really, it's kind of nice.....but, if she could push up her alarm time a little, Aunt Pants wouldn't mind at all!!!!
So, being the self respecting person I am, I went to retrieve a cuppa joe....to be greeted by my all too perky sister (and trust me, she doesn't wake up that way!) telling me that the coffee, well, she didn't check it, and it was left over from yesterday. Ahhh....foiled again. So, I set about cleaning up the the kitchen sink sufficiently to satisfy me - I have this thing about stuff in the kitchen sink - and making a pot 'o coffee. So, I set about getting ready for the day and then went and got some coffee.
Like most people these days I started to sit down and check my e-mail; but, then remembered I hadn't made my bed yet - so I returned to the boudoir to make the bed. I grab the edge of the quilt and am met by a troubling sensation....wetness. ARGH............... Now, I know yesterday I detailed the human move in....but did I mention four cats are part of the deal....I didn't think so. Well, Pete, my sister's original cat, has a history of making his feelings known about situations he's not all together happy with...he expresses those feelings by depositing his various types of excrement in quite inappropriate places. Yesterday the deposit was on my 2 year old nieces' bed - today - it was me....ah....just frickin', frackin' perfect!!!! Pete, he's mad at the wrong person - I'm here to be his friend, doesn't he understand that....I know, he's a cat - he's an animal!!!! Ahhhhh................
Now, I know, you've got to be thinking - enough already.....well, not so!!!! Before putting the two year old down for a nap I gather up her peed upon down comforter to take to the dry cleaners, not five minutes from the house. Well, I get there and start walking though the door and TRIP over the threshold - in all my glory, and go sprawling headlong into the store, being pulled out of my flip flops, my handful of keys going one way, and the peed on comforter protecting me from smacking my face and probably smashing my glasses....the expensive pair!!!! The girl behind the counter peers over and says..."are you alright?" - ARE YOU KIDDING ME - of course I answered, "I'm fine", after all, I do have some pride! Tomorrow I should have some award winning bruises!
So it goes....just another day in the life of your average middle aged woman!
Monday, October 13, 2008
New Normal....
Yesterday was D-Day around here! My sister and her family officially 'moved in' - really except for sleeping and the adult contingent showering everyone had relocated here - I'm not exactly sure when that happened.....it just seems 'normal' now!!! So, the beds, and shoes, and clothes, and cosmetics, and medications, and......is here, and I know there has to be some more to come. So - there is now a new 'normal' here, and I'm great with it....but it will be an adjustment for everyone. Bless my sisters' heart - since she and her family moved in with Dad about 2.5 years ago I'm sure she feels like 'normal' isn't even part of the English language - that is something she has to be anxious to define when their house is done. My sister, she's one that likes some order in her chaos (I'm not finger pointing, I'm built the same way) - and for the last couple of years, order has been a pretty illusive commodity....so let the excavation and building begin!!!!
This morning I realized there was a whole new normal....I awoke to the sounds of a little baby doll stroller rolling across my hardwood floors and hearing my almost three year old niece say 'Ancy...you wake up????' Really, not such a terrible way to wake up, she had such a sweet little voice!
Living situations are changing...and the seasons are changing here in Indiana....my favorite season, fall time. The leaves are starting to turn - blazing red, sunset orange, speckled yellow - the corn is being picked, and where it is not picked are the corn sheaves ready to give up their bounty. Though we seem to be in the midst of Indian Summer, the air is drier and the nights are crisp and cool - ah....fall time.
So, yeah - it is affirmed once again - "normal" it is way overrated!
Sunday, October 05, 2008
The Trouble with Time...
The eastern Europe trip was amazing and fabulous. I am definitely a 'cruise convert' - it IS the only way to vacation....there have never been so many people so interested in my happiness all of the time. There was the 'little' incident at the end of two days in St. Petersburg where the Russian mafia decided I was a perfect target and pick-pocketed my fanny pack and got my camera - so all of my pictures for the first half of my vacation are lost to some idiots in Russia....I showed them, I bought a new camera on-board the same night!!! I loved Estonia (Tallin) - it was a picturesque European city, like you would see in pictures and/or paintings....and I did some great shopping! Berlin was amazing - especially from a historical perspective - to walk though the Brandenburg Gate and lean up against the Berlin Wall and walk around Checkpoint Charlie - somehow it was really profound - as a woman who remembers the weekly air raid drills in grade school, it was really quite something.
Work on the house continues - actually I've almost decided it is never ending. Most of the outside work is done...well, not really - I'm getting new handrails for both the front and back steps, and a new rail around the perimeter of the front porch, that will happen in the next couple of weeks. I've picked the shingles and skylights I want for the roof - but that needs to wait for the reno on the attic to begin....and Friday I did select a contractor, so hopefully, that will start sooner rather than later. Next year I will get an awning for the front porch - continue with Scott's lawn care and the landscaping - and that will pretty well close the loop! Well....there is the matter of the driveway that is going to need attention eventually - yeah, it just never ends!!!
Health wise, I've been hanging in there - after the Europe trip I was a little out of commission for about a month - some kind of 'bug' got me, and it was wicked. The infusions every 28 days (there's that 28 day number....!!) are really kind of miraculous. This last month the last two weeks or so were more difficult that others, I'm not really sure why - but Wednesday was infusion day and I'm feeling pretty good now!
In September I became a Grandma again - this time a little boy! Next month I'm going to Texas to meet the little guy and spend some time with my girls!
The demo/construction next door is starting in earnest - and soon the Gunn gang will be moving in, as my two year old niece says, "aventure"!!!! Sometimes it's hard - as the screened in back porch fell to the ground....but, it is a wonderful thing for my sister and her family, and for the first time they will really be able to create their own home.
Soooo...time just keeps marching on - it can't be boxed up and saved for later - you gotta grab it while it's here!
Monday, July 14, 2008
Ready, Set, Go...Go...Go...
It has been craziness the last week or so - but at least I have something to show for it!!! I have beautiful new windows - the inside of the windows is all wood, and is currently naked - but a painter can fix that!! The French doors are beautiful - and they didn't crack the plaster, not one bit getting them in!!!! The custom router/mill work on the interior window frame is amazing - it is so close to the original woodwork....I couldn't be happier!!!
My front door is beautiful - though it has a cheesy handle/lock right now - they sent the wrong 'guts' to the handle that I ordered....so - the door locks and that's what matters. The storm doors and back door are OK too....but that front door, it's dynamite!
So...this morning as we were leaving the homestead the guys were back working on the garage gutter/soffits - yeah, should have been done when the house was....but, yours truly neglected to contract for it - and therefore, it didn't get done!!!! So, better late than never - and as my brother pointed out to me - he (nor I) can really remember gutters being on the garage - ever!
Now - I'm in the Windy City - actually in a suburb thereof....waiting to fly out tomorrow evening, direct flight to Copenhagen - there for 3 days and then set sail on Saturday!!!! I can't believe that all the pieces have fallen together and I'm actually going to do this!!!! I am so, so, so looking forward to this trip!!!
When you have to tote around all this crazy medical gear there is just no such thing as 'traveling light' - as my sister would say, it's a very 'high maintenance' operation! The real dilemma is the weather - the 'highs' this time of year in all the places we're traveling to is 65-75, so you gotta dress in layers....and then there are always those 'outlier' days when it might be 80 or another where it could get all the way up to 50 - there's no clear cut solution, say like you'd have in the Caribbean!
So, right now we're kinda biding our time - I'm excited about this trip, but already know it will be good to come home to family and friends!
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Fireworks, Symphony Music, and Naps.....
My sister and her family left for Pennsylvania (with both of her in-laws too) on Thursday afternoon - and Amy, Rob, and Sara are likely somewhere in eastern Ohio on their way home (if all went according to plan, which can be a wild card!).....my sisters FIL will be returning the day before I leave on my big vacation.
So - what to do with all this solitude....!!!??? Friday I celebrated the Fourth in true red, white and blue fashion at Connor Prairie and Symphony on the Prairie with a purely patriotic repertoire, it was great. Dinner was furnished (even better!) - complete with fried chicken and apple pie!!! I had a great time, a relaxing evening with great friends and music - it was cool but not cold and slightly overcast, so we didn't get blinded by that western sun - the way you look to be facing the orchestra!
Yesterday was errands...all vacation related!! Got some new spiffy red luggage - do you know how many people have blue and black luggage (including me?!?!?), so hopefully my new pieces will stand out a little more at the Copenhagen airport in little more than a week! Then I went to Borders and got some more travel books - the ones I got early this winter were pretty generic, this time I knew better what I was aiming at - now that I have some itineraries for tours and such - also picked up a Sue Grafton paperback for an 'easy read' book, and am taking The Reason For God - Questions in an Age of Skepticism. Brenners luggage was a stop - luggage tags and TSA approved locks, also got a Baggalini tote bag (my aunt in Chicago got one for Christmas to take on the trip and showed it to me...lightweight and nylon and folds into a pouch that's about 4"x4"), and a new travel umbrella that I've needed for some time, this just feels like the best excuse to get one!!! Then, what is a shopping outing without a stop at Target - needed some household essentials (I never like to have less than 4 rolls of tp!!!), travel Scrabble for the plane ride and ship, and some hygiene items for the trip.
Today has been a strictly at home day - and boy is it quiet - have I mentioned I wouldn't want a steady diet of this....???!!! Laundry going and started taking a serious inventory of the clothes I have for the big trip....and I'm not sure but I think I've got everything I need, and then some!!! AND....BONUS...I took a nap today - had a headache, took some Aleve, and slept for an hour and a half, now I feel great!
Need to pick up my favorite red cocktail dress from the dry cleaners, to take for one of the formal nights, and call the oxygen company to come fix my at home concentrator tomorrow. Tomorrow is also the big beginning of the new window installation - I'm not sure if I'm really ready for this, but I certainly am ready to get it done. They are also suppose to come the first of this week and do the guttering/downspouts/soffits on the garage....forgot to contract for that when I did the house.
So the deafening silence will be broken - and I'm good with that....miss that bundle of energy known as my two year old niece!!! And though it has been an odd July 4 holiday, since no time was spent at the lake this year (construction has begun!!!), it has been a good holiday, if not a little too quiet...have I mentioned how quiet it's been????
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Clear to Me...
One thing that has become clear to me is that God created woman to have children at a younger age for a very good reason....prime among them endurance and stamina!!! Don't get me wrong - the weariness experienced with interacting/caring for a 2.5 year old and/or a 9 year old is the best kind of tiredness there is - BUT God in God's infinate wisdom made those of us who are wiser and more mature grandmothers and aunts....or grandfathers and uncles!
A little over a week ago I returned from Texas and Isabel, my oldest granddaughter came home with me. Isabel is 9 years old and the most delightful little girl you would ever want to meet....and smart - oh my gosh, it's a little fightening.....between Isabel and Sara I feel like I need to go back to school to keep up with them - let alone be a step ahead of them!!!! It makes me wonder it my Mom felt this way when we were younger.
The great thing about kids is that they give you the perfect excuse to do things you might not otherwise do - we've been to the Children's Museum, the Zoo, the 500 Museum - with White River State Garden and the Indiana State Museum are on the horizon...and another day at the pool.
Yesterday Isabel and I drove up to Chicago - a three hour car trip is an eternity to a nine year old....we can all remember those days!!! To be nine and able to sleep in the car - ahhh, just another thing we don't appreciate at the time!!!
Today we are going to go shopping for a baby gift for my cousin Susan's baby boy, at Oakbrook I think, and then we are headed for a graduation party at my close friend Lori's house - her youngest son graduated from high school. Tomorrow I hope to take Isabel into the city and do something - maybe Navy Pier or the Shedd Aquarium....or/and the American Girl store, if I can find it. Monday we head home.
To keep life really interesting the work continues on the house....the concrete has been poured and the muratic acid applied....they will have to come back and apply the sealant. The gutter/soffit/siding project is 2/3 done, with the gutters to go up next week - it's amazing what a difference the siding makes. The window project should commence in the next couple of weeks...and then the major outside projects will be done.
Amy and Sara have 'moved' back to their house - Amy wasn't promising on a permanent basis, but that is not a problem....truth is I miss having them around (even though they live just next door!) - there is nothing like a 2 year old for a reality check!
Ahhhhh....to be young again and have that seemingly limitless energy......
Monday, May 19, 2008
Neck Deep.....
Soooo....picture this middle aged woman 'wheelin' and dealin' with various ilks of contractors!!! In the past couple of weeks window/door/wrap; gutter/soffit/shake siding, and concrete/all walks/all steps/front porch contractors have been added to the payroll. I've learned how to fake my way though a good window conversation, so, I don't sound like a total moron; know far more about concrete aggregate than I ever wanted to know; and, have quite good conversation skills when it comes to gutter/soffits/and shake siding!
You want to know what a real revelatory moment was....too bad, I'm going to tell you anyway - when you buy a door, it DOES NOT come with handle/door knobs/locks!!! Who knew...clearly, not me!!! Riddle me this, is a door REALLY a door without handles/knobs....isn't it just a slab of wood or whatever they make them out of these days?!?!?! The new front door I bought, I absolutely love, love, love it....and well I should, holy crimeny, the thing should automatically open and close for me!!!!
Sometimes I hear myself talking and wonder...who is this woman!!! Just little ole' me!!!
Have been able to spend more time with Sara the last few weeks, and it's been great! Last week had her all day on Tuesday - and ditto for tomorrow. She is quite the little spitfire - and will tell you exactly what is on her mind, I can't imagine where she gets that!!! She is so smart and funny, sometimes it's a little scary - and boy, does she know how to bat those big brown eyes of hers!!! Sara gives the best hugs and kisses ever - she really does make my heart happy, she is really a little blessing.
On to see what kind of mischief I can get myself into - I paid bills this morning, so I think I'm entitled to a little mischief!!!!