Well, let's make no mistake about it - it IS February in the great heartland of America! Yesterday it was spitting snowflurries - and today we're looking at snow melt....AND then tomorow snow again!!!
This being in the hospital on a monthly basis really sucks - especially when it is taking a week and more out of every month - ARGH.
Yesterday was a little hairy. Ron Burwinkel feels at this point I'm deveoping cor pulmonale (right sided heart fairlure) on top of the CHF (left sided heart failure) that we already were aware of. So, yesterday was spent scurrying around the hopsital getting scans, x-rays done - have blood work done and starting a big urine collection......so much for going home today!!!
I CANNOT, CANNOT, CANNOT wait to go to Florida - I get on the big jet plane a Wednesday! Then, I can begin thinking about my great summer vacation....a REAL vacation!!!!
Amy, Rob, and Sara came up on Monday afternoon.....there just isn't much that makes me happier than having my niece come running at me full tillt, saying 'Ant Ansey Pants...." with that big beautiful smile on her face.
Lots of friends from church came to visit yesterday - and it was great to see them all. Richard and Paul stopped up, and I'm so glad that they did - they are such great guys and funny....oh my gosh!
Not exactly sure what today has to hold....one day closer to getting out of here!
Nanci
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
A Good Whine.....
OK - get ready, and hold on to your hats for a little self indulgent whining - which might be helped along by a little wine from the vine, but it's way, way too early for that and I don't think it's on the menu here!!!
Went to the MD yesterday morning for this little upper respiratory 'thing' I've got....in my orbit of the world - there is not a "little" upper respiratory thing!!! So.....as my friend Mary Katherine predicted (she brought me to the MD, I really felt like crap) I got admitted to the hospital.....grrrrrr, argh, damit, and anything else you'd like to throw in there. After I 'caved' and said "ok" to coming over to the 'slammer', I reminded him "tick, tock - I leave for Florida two weeks from today!!!!" Really, this is more about getting me 'tuned up' and able to breathe without sounding like a symphony of respiratory sounds: wheezing, rales, and rhonci!
Called Amy late yesterday afternoon....she had taken Sara to the MD and Sara has pink eye ---- just perfect!!!! I'm sure it makes Amy a little crazy, having accepted the Manager's position at Riley - but I'm really proud of her, she's got her priorities right, her family is first.
Walked outside yesterday to go to the MD and was suprised that we had gotten as much snow as we had - 2 - 3 inches. It's cold, and more snow is predicted, with a little ice and sleet thrown in for good measure. This weather is very reminiscent of the weather a year ago, when Dad was declining and the day he died. Sometimes it bothers me that I seem to miss him more than I did Mom immediately after her death (I'm making up for it now!!) - but, after Mom died, Dad became my/our full time project, and then his health really started to tank 5-6 months after Mom died....so, I do 'get it'.
Hope that Sara rebounds quickly and her little eyes stop 'oozing' - now there's a picture for you!!!!! She is 'da' best thing to hit this family in several years - being with her and just watching her (she's begun to 'toy' with the adults in her life!!!!) - there is no way you cannot believe in the goodness and love of God.
Went to the MD yesterday morning for this little upper respiratory 'thing' I've got....in my orbit of the world - there is not a "little" upper respiratory thing!!! So.....as my friend Mary Katherine predicted (she brought me to the MD, I really felt like crap) I got admitted to the hospital.....grrrrrr, argh, damit, and anything else you'd like to throw in there. After I 'caved' and said "ok" to coming over to the 'slammer', I reminded him "tick, tock - I leave for Florida two weeks from today!!!!" Really, this is more about getting me 'tuned up' and able to breathe without sounding like a symphony of respiratory sounds: wheezing, rales, and rhonci!
Called Amy late yesterday afternoon....she had taken Sara to the MD and Sara has pink eye ---- just perfect!!!! I'm sure it makes Amy a little crazy, having accepted the Manager's position at Riley - but I'm really proud of her, she's got her priorities right, her family is first.
Walked outside yesterday to go to the MD and was suprised that we had gotten as much snow as we had - 2 - 3 inches. It's cold, and more snow is predicted, with a little ice and sleet thrown in for good measure. This weather is very reminiscent of the weather a year ago, when Dad was declining and the day he died. Sometimes it bothers me that I seem to miss him more than I did Mom immediately after her death (I'm making up for it now!!) - but, after Mom died, Dad became my/our full time project, and then his health really started to tank 5-6 months after Mom died....so, I do 'get it'.
Hope that Sara rebounds quickly and her little eyes stop 'oozing' - now there's a picture for you!!!!! She is 'da' best thing to hit this family in several years - being with her and just watching her (she's begun to 'toy' with the adults in her life!!!!) - there is no way you cannot believe in the goodness and love of God.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Ramblings in February
It's February - yeah, I know, we're half way through the month - anyway, it's gloomy and raining here today, somewhere in the 50's....and tomorrow, well we're going to have snow showers - it's the Twilight Zone of weather. Perhaps the weather in part explains why I have the mother of all colds/the flu, which of course has settled in my lungs - for the love of it all....enough already. Today I've become a wheezing machine - the good news is: at least I'm moving air....the bad news: I'm wheezing in the small percentage of my lungs that 'work' right. So, I'm spending quality time with my nebulizer and oxygen, taking the antibiotics, and praying tonight is a better night. I guess the 'good news' is that I'm getting this now and not when I go to 'the happiest place on earth' in a few weeks.....but this was no where on my radar.
Last night at dinner I asked Amy if she remembered what she was doing on this date many years ago....she paused and thought about it and then said "ohhhhh...." Yesterday was our wedding anniversary - the 16th and a Saturaday - it is so hard to believe that Vance died almost 11 years ago - in some ways it feels just like yesterday, and in other ways - it was a lifetime ago.
Then, a week from today, on the 24th marks a year since Dad died. There are times, I swear he's here - and my brother CJ sounds like my Dad it is a little freaky sometimes when he calls, I've started to call him Dad more than once before I snap back to reality....then there are those moments I hear "Nance, have you thought about......" - well no, of course I hadn't -- my Dad was the only one who called me 'Nance'. I like to think of all these things as gifts, but sometimes it just gets a little weird. The other day I was coming home and turned into the alley, a female red cardinal 'guided' me all the way to my drive way....Mom loved cardinals, especially in the wintertime when things are so bleak, for me it was/is a sign, Mom is still watching out for all of us.
Last night at dinner I asked Amy if she remembered what she was doing on this date many years ago....she paused and thought about it and then said "ohhhhh...." Yesterday was our wedding anniversary - the 16th and a Saturaday - it is so hard to believe that Vance died almost 11 years ago - in some ways it feels just like yesterday, and in other ways - it was a lifetime ago.
Then, a week from today, on the 24th marks a year since Dad died. There are times, I swear he's here - and my brother CJ sounds like my Dad it is a little freaky sometimes when he calls, I've started to call him Dad more than once before I snap back to reality....then there are those moments I hear "Nance, have you thought about......" - well no, of course I hadn't -- my Dad was the only one who called me 'Nance'. I like to think of all these things as gifts, but sometimes it just gets a little weird. The other day I was coming home and turned into the alley, a female red cardinal 'guided' me all the way to my drive way....Mom loved cardinals, especially in the wintertime when things are so bleak, for me it was/is a sign, Mom is still watching out for all of us.
Friday, February 08, 2008
Random
So, here are some random thoughts and observations from my little corner of heaven.......
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You need a vacation from planning a vacation to Disney World!!!! Leave for the happiest place on earth March 6 - am meeting up with Tabitha and Will and the three granddaughters....the girls have no clue about Disney, or that Grandma will be there!!!! BUT....yipes - I'm now convinced you could spend a month there and still not see it all!!! :) Think after several hours of reading and coordinating yesterday I finally have a handle on this - now need to talk to Tabitha just to make sure everything is 'covered' and coordinated in a way that everyone will do OK with - when you throw a 8, 4, and 2 year old into the mix planning ahead really is your friend!!!
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Today is a red letter day around here!!! Sara is going to get her first hair cut!!!! Amy is going to get her hair done to, so Aunt Nanci gets to tag along, so there is supervision for Sara, so Amy can maybe enjoy her hair cut!!! Rest assured, I will be taking a camera to capture this big moment!!!!
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On the news last night there was a story about 3 guys who were canoing on White River in the Carmel area - are you kidding me. White River and several other rivers are flooding right now, so these three jokers think yesterday was a pick day to canoe. Now, stupidity isn't a crime - BUT, when you put others in danger (the fireman guys who were the rescuers) because you are an idiot - well, that's a different story.
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Well....all my light fixtures have been delivered and installed - and look fabulous, just ask me! All that remains to be done is to take delivery of a chair for my desk, and a new painting for over the fireplace....and framing and matting of some black and white photos of family, I still need to find and select!!!
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I've really found myself missing Mom more. Maybe because the dust is settling for the first time since she died and I (well, really, none of us) had a chance to grieve her death after she died - taking on Dad and caring for him became the next full time endeavor - Mom was the only one who really knew how to wrangle him....anyway, here I am a 50 year old woman really missing her Mom. Somehow, I think there is a part of me that will always miss Mom....and Dad too, for that matter.
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Life is way too short to sit around feeling sorry for myself - I have an amazing family (if not a little quirky sometimes!) and THE best friends ever....a roof over my head....food in my fridge and pantry....comfy new furniture.....some money in the bank...and a God that never fails me - so really, I am blessed beyond words.
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You need a vacation from planning a vacation to Disney World!!!! Leave for the happiest place on earth March 6 - am meeting up with Tabitha and Will and the three granddaughters....the girls have no clue about Disney, or that Grandma will be there!!!! BUT....yipes - I'm now convinced you could spend a month there and still not see it all!!! :) Think after several hours of reading and coordinating yesterday I finally have a handle on this - now need to talk to Tabitha just to make sure everything is 'covered' and coordinated in a way that everyone will do OK with - when you throw a 8, 4, and 2 year old into the mix planning ahead really is your friend!!!
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Today is a red letter day around here!!! Sara is going to get her first hair cut!!!! Amy is going to get her hair done to, so Aunt Nanci gets to tag along, so there is supervision for Sara, so Amy can maybe enjoy her hair cut!!! Rest assured, I will be taking a camera to capture this big moment!!!!
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On the news last night there was a story about 3 guys who were canoing on White River in the Carmel area - are you kidding me. White River and several other rivers are flooding right now, so these three jokers think yesterday was a pick day to canoe. Now, stupidity isn't a crime - BUT, when you put others in danger (the fireman guys who were the rescuers) because you are an idiot - well, that's a different story.
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Well....all my light fixtures have been delivered and installed - and look fabulous, just ask me! All that remains to be done is to take delivery of a chair for my desk, and a new painting for over the fireplace....and framing and matting of some black and white photos of family, I still need to find and select!!!
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I've really found myself missing Mom more. Maybe because the dust is settling for the first time since she died and I (well, really, none of us) had a chance to grieve her death after she died - taking on Dad and caring for him became the next full time endeavor - Mom was the only one who really knew how to wrangle him....anyway, here I am a 50 year old woman really missing her Mom. Somehow, I think there is a part of me that will always miss Mom....and Dad too, for that matter.
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Life is way too short to sit around feeling sorry for myself - I have an amazing family (if not a little quirky sometimes!) and THE best friends ever....a roof over my head....food in my fridge and pantry....comfy new furniture.....some money in the bank...and a God that never fails me - so really, I am blessed beyond words.
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