Ramblings in February

It's February - yeah, I know, we're half way through the month - anyway, it's gloomy and raining here today, somewhere in the 50's....and tomorrow, well we're going to have snow showers - it's the Twilight Zone of weather. Perhaps the weather in part explains why I have the mother of all colds/the flu, which of course has settled in my lungs - for the love of it all....enough already. Today I've become a wheezing machine - the good news is: at least I'm moving air....the bad news: I'm wheezing in the small percentage of my lungs that 'work' right. So, I'm spending quality time with my nebulizer and oxygen, taking the antibiotics, and praying tonight is a better night. I guess the 'good news' is that I'm getting this now and not when I go to 'the happiest place on earth' in a few weeks.....but this was no where on my radar.

Last night at dinner I asked Amy if she remembered what she was doing on this date many years ago....she paused and thought about it and then said "ohhhhh...." Yesterday was our wedding anniversary - the 16th and a Saturaday - it is so hard to believe that Vance died almost 11 years ago - in some ways it feels just like yesterday, and in other ways - it was a lifetime ago.

Then, a week from today, on the 24th marks a year since Dad died. There are times, I swear he's here - and my brother CJ sounds like my Dad it is a little freaky sometimes when he calls, I've started to call him Dad more than once before I snap back to reality....then there are those moments I hear "Nance, have you thought about......" - well no, of course I hadn't -- my Dad was the only one who called me 'Nance'. I like to think of all these things as gifts, but sometimes it just gets a little weird. The other day I was coming home and turned into the alley, a female red cardinal 'guided' me all the way to my drive way....Mom loved cardinals, especially in the wintertime when things are so bleak, for me it was/is a sign, Mom is still watching out for all of us.